Wednesday, July 09, 2008

Hello world, here is my soul

Last night i watched the movie 'the last kiss'-which i truly hated. i think mostly i hated the idea of another aimless boy stuck in the peter pan faze of life. Watching 'knocked up' really was depressing as well. Being a female gen-x-er--these two movies are a really awful interpretation of men, and our generation.
i don't see hope there. i guess each movie is supposed to end with hope-but what i walk away with is not hope, it's just sadness.
i have to say that i am more comfortable with disappointment that pops up in life, and i am terrible at hoping- honestly. i don't really think about it, because if i don't name it, it's not there, and it's safer- which is a lie.

This is so much more depressing than i thought i was going to be, and much more vulnerable.

Why i hated the last kiss was this- with his life ahead of him, he saw only an end.
He thought of himself, sacrificed his future for the present regardless of others' feelings, and he still sort of got what he wants in the end--which i guess is how grace works, getting something we do not deserve because of anothers' love for us.

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1 comment:

eRIN said...

I enjoyed reading your thoughts. I feel the same way when I watch movies like that.