Wednesday, June 18, 2008

When it don't come easy

For some reason i have the welcome back kotter theme song stuck in my head.
i seem to have these random thoughts that go through my head, like before i left i thought- 'next time i'm here, i will have come from Africa'. . . Last night i had that same thought- except reverse. It seemed so weird to experience something that i have looked forward to for so long, and what i've talked about for so long to be over- but it's not truly over because i want to go back. However, it will take awhile for me to recover from the 40 hours of travel that we experienced both ways.
At times i found African culture overwhelming with their willingness to give every part of them. i also found it overwhelming to come home, and to be so segregated here. It's not my intention to rant, and i'm not- but i realize how lonely it can be and how it feels almost wrong to not acknowledge someone you see walking down the street.
i am so tired too. i went to bed around midnight, and woke up at 5:30 AM, and couldn't go back to sleep. i need to stay up at least until 9. i'm glad i took off the week from work, there is no way that i am good company right now. i am a lot more anxious than i usually am.

Lucky for me i made sure that i'm not doing anything so i can readjust.

1 comment:

eRIN said...

I'm glad you took this week off too. I'd love to sit down with you soon and listen to your thoughts. I'm sure so much is going through your head.