We got word this week that my brother is getting split custody with my niece, Ainsley. i have to say that i am so relieved to be able to be apart of this beautiful little girl's life. i am so blessed by her and Trinity. They are my girls, and i never knew i was capable of loving someone as much as i love the two of them.
They make me laugh, and keep me active (only because their favorite pastime is jumping on a trampoline, and they love it when you jump with them).
i guess i look at them for now as close to kids as i'm at right now, and they may potentially be the closest thing; so the thought of having to say good bye to these two little ones that i have grown to love with their bright eyes and little 'tudes was more than i wanted to be okay with.
As i grow i learn to lean into the grace and hope of God. i find that it is hard for me to trust at times, only because i am scared of the disappointment that follows unanswered hope. But i would rather live in a world of disappointments that lead me growing into who i need to become instead of fizzling out in a safe life.
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i hope you bring them to church sometime. i am so happy for you, your brother, and your neices!
love you!
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