Intolerant moods

i can't say that i have done anything productive today... Well, i made a killer curry... i love having Saturdays off, but often i just listen to NPR, and surf the net.
Today however, i did happen to get wrapped up in tvland... It started off innocent enough w/ some shows on the decorating channel... Then some mythbusters... i did get wrapped up in a program about the kkk on the History Channel.
i consider myself so sheltered from the culture of hatred. i never grew up thinking there was any difference between skin colors; thanks to Sunday school songs. The thought of racism still makes no sense to me, and i am so filled with such disdain, and rage. These are the programs that i have to put the remote down, or it could be hurled through my roommates television. i am enraged by the injustice, for the hypocrisy, the ignorance, and the injustice. What twists my brain into convulsions is the kkk's ideas about religion... Jesus was a Jew, he was an advocate for the oppressed, and his compassion for the least of these.
i live in fear that i am a bad representation of my faith, and so i am compelled as a Christian, and a human to care for anyone in need.
i guess that's the difference, during the program the members often spoke of preservation of their race, which is my race, which makes me ill. My skin color does not make up who i am, it has provided me with privilege that i often don't think about, and that makes me uncomfortable. Which being uncomfortable is a good thing, i should be uncomfortable, and then be apart of the change to spread love, and unity.
i have to talk and think of hope. We weren't meant to live without hope. We can hope for change, and be the change in the wind that strives for equality.